I loved
The beautiful phantasms
You abused for hating me
To a state beyond insanity.
There was chaos
I loved so ceaselessly,
I believed no foreign touch
Could diminish
My unrequited loving
For your hateful,
Passionate craft,
That I only had the chance to see once,
But it pierced through my lungs,
Until I was convinced,
The act of breathing
Was causality of love.
I am liberated
In the shell of tender arms
You were incapable of giving.
There's insanity
In the recurring thought
That even your hate was better
Than his love.
When I could solely scream,
There was paper.
No grimace, no man;
You're written as engraved onto my skin,
He wiped clean,
Again and again.
It's astonishing:
The lust in me
On thought of your breath,
Teleports me back
To the chains
Of how I loved
The reasons you hated me.
I'll always fail horrendously
To forget,
I am loved, but unsatisfied.
Fortunately,
The memory keeps captive
Of your poison in me.
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